Thank You Kacey, Natalie, and Shane

On my 19-hour solo drive from Florida to New York, I was listening to The Highway on SiriusXM and heard a song I have never heard before – “Rainbow”, sung by Kacey Musgraves. Since I was focused on the drive, I couldn’t go to the interwebs to learn what the song was about. In fact, 

I really didn’t WANT to know.

As I struggle with the upcoming anniversary of my daughter Alyssa’s death, “Rainbow” touched my heart.

Alyssa was a victim of the Opioid Crisis. By 2017, she was winning the battle – each and every day. She was clean and gainfully employed, despite having a past that red-flagged every background check. She was in a meaningful relationship with someone who understood her struggle and supported her fight as she did his. And she had met the conditions of her “debt” to society head-on, even though it required her to fight the world every single day in order to do so.

But Alyssa never thought of herself as “winning”. She didn’t celebrate her earned success of restoring her life piece by piece. I told her more than once that she might find peace in sharing her struggles with others who could benefit from hearing her experiences. Her answer was always, “Why? So more people can see what a failure I was getting myself into this position in the first place?” I didn’t see it that way at ALL, but sadly she never ever believed me. It’s been a struggle to make sense of it all.

THANK YOU Kacey Musgraves, Natalie Hemby, and Shane McAnally for writing “Rainbow”. I hope you won’t mind that I’ve decided on my own what your song is about 🙂

When it rains, it pours
But you didn’t even notice
It ain’t rainin’ anymore
It’s hard to breathe when all you know is
The struggle of stayin’ above the risin’ water line

Well the sky has finally opened
The rain and wind stopped blowin’
But you’re stuck out in the same ol’ storm again
You hold tight to your umbrella
Well, darlin’, I’m just tryin’ to tell ya
That there’s always been a rainbow hangin’ over your head

If you could see what I see
You’d be blinded by the colors
Yellow, red, and orange, and green
And at least a million others
So tie up the boat, take off your coat, and take a look around

‘Cause the sky has finally opened
The rain and wind stopped blowin’
But you’re stuck out in the same ol’ storm again
You hold tight to your umbrella
Well, darlin’, I’m just tryin’ to tell ya
That there’s always been a rainbow hangin’ over your head.

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